Fulfillment......

One word : Fulfillment

Every once in a while we make a special wish.....we see a dream that we want to be real....we want something out of our lives.....and the want is more than a conditioned want.....it is not exhorbitant or unjustified......it is just a simple thing which converts our want into a need.....I too felt that want......the want of fulfillment.....

Every person , no matter whether he is happy or sad , rich or poor , lonely or not in his/her own way creates that want which turns into a need....the variations in the desires of differnt individuals vary with the variations in the individuals themselves but we all irrespective of our vagaries have a couple of things we share in common.....especially feelings .....I choose to single out feelings only based on the fact that a majority of people want to experience the aforesaid feelings.....feelings like love...happiness...care....bliss....belonging.....acceptance.....comapny etc. amongst other things.....I too am no different.....

Over the past couple of days these feelings were greatly aroused in me by my loneliness and unhappiness which were stemming from ma inability to accept the situation......but then something happened.....something which never has happened to me before......something so wonderful that it brought a smile to my face and a tear to my eye.....Lo and behold.... in front of me stood...my guardian angel....my light....my reason....my life....You....

The sight of you changed the seasons in my head and from the gloom of the dark cloud shone the light so bright that i could see clearly.....in one instant you made me feel loved cared and happy....You showed me that i was not alone and that I had you by my side.....it showed my that wonderful things do exist in the viciousness and materialism that surrounds us....It showed my that my love faith and belief could grow even furthur and the strength I could draw from it would be unmentionable.....You showed me something I had never seen or heard or felt before in my entire life.....For that I am forever obliged and deeply indebted.....

In the time spent.....all the things i saw when i was in my subterrenean subconscious state was brought to life in colors so vivid and clarity such as of a crystal.....that i was overwhelmed .....overwhelmed that how these mystical forces worked in my favour at this given point of time and space.....I felt on top of the world.....There was nothing more i could ask for apart from that i did not want it to end....

These feelings You have given....These feelings you have shared....these feelings will not die down or fade away ....instead they shall rage within me like a river reaching for its end...At the end of time if i stood and with you.....taking into account all that we have shared.....i would think that all i have dreamt of has come true....all we have dreamt of has come true.....so even though we have more to see......i utter one word in your praise......Fulfillment.....

You.....

After all the lows.....all the pain.....all the disappointment....it struck me that I am in a trough.....I am in the rut.....and with that dawned of realisation that the sinusoidal curve that is my life will rise and I shall be happy again as I yearn... to be......as i desire to be.....I can say that with a certain surety because the tide has been turned by YOU.....
YOU...yes YOU...with You by my side i know that all those scarlet fantasies I dream of...all those wild imaginings...all those plans i draw...shall become a reality.....You have taught me to feel....taught me to care...taught me to love...taught me t...o experience things i never thought existed....You have widened the spectrum of my imagination to a limitless infinity...to let my thoughts run amok...You make me believe.
And with this belief an aeon shall pass....till i stop feeling the way i do...for You...about You....for 'twas a slight of hand....for 'twas a twist of fate....for which i have to thank ....for it brought me closer to You....